A note to my readers: some nights I do not have connectivity so cannot post my blog entry until the next day. The listed date of publication indicates the date it was written even though it may not appear until later. Today’s post was written yesterday
I got the best night’s sleep that I’ve had yet though I woke about 1:30 and had to play some Sudoku on my iPad until I felt sleepy again. It didn’t help that outside our window it was party central in the old city until about 3:00, but I didn’t begrudge it.
Astaria and I ended up being the only two in a room for six (which felt like luxury) and neither of us woke up until 7:45 which is a pretty late start. The trail for today was mostly up for half the 22 km and a relatively steep downhill for the rest. At the top was a long ridge lined with wind turbines that were very beautiful. The character of the land had changed again, more arid but miles of cultivated fields. The views were stupendous.
Because of the late start we didn’t make our goal for the day, stopping instead in the small village of Muruzábal about five miles short of our goal. Walking up the hill after leaving Pamplona I began to experience some pain/distress in my hips. I mentioned it to Astaria and she told me to ask my hips what they were trying to tell me. I explained about the physical history but she said, “No, it’s more then that”. We walked on for a bit as she tuned into my energy and then she asked me, “is there something in your life that you feel you have to do?” I paused and then said, “Yes.”
Then I talked about the number of good things I have created but then felt compelled to maintain because it seemed like no one else could do it, or no one else could do it to my standard. So I end up doing too much but find myself unable to let go. Feeling indispensable is, I know, a spiritual disease that disempowers others even as it burdens me.
Very quickly after I started verbalizing these things I noticed that the pain in my hips disappeared. Astaria said she could feel the difference in my energy. That led to lots of good reflections for the rest of the day. These are not new ideas for me but I have drifted away from looking at symptoms that way and instead I chalk them up to advancing age or purely physical factors.
Good food for thought.